The issue with "I"
A solution to the disillusionment with the I-llusion
The issue with I?
It’s been causing perhaps writer’s block. Of sorts. So long as we can define blockage beyond sitting down and blank screen. I write every day. Something. Yet I've avoided the creative or commentary. Especially with the commentary, I've felt clogged. What is it? Well, I knew part of it was I didn't want to sound petty.
Who cares, you might ask? We all know it’s a bit testy these days. That’s certainly played into it.
I looked. I asked.
What I've realized is the root of the issue of this fear of writing content has to do with where I am at on my spiritual path.
What in the world could that be? Let me ask first, are you ready? It’s a sin. Possibly one of the greatest in the English language.
Ready?
I no longer wish to capitalize the spelling of "I".
Yes, even if i am to start a sentence with “i”, i will not capitalize it within my writings on this blog. Well, so long as (here we go!) i am referring to what would be considered “myself”. If i do capitalize it, be assured i am not using it in the way we have all been taught. It would not be about "me".
What is the purpose of all of this? It will offer peace of mind when writing, knowing i am staying true to where i am at metaphysically. Could i also drop the "me", "my", "mine" mannerism then? Would love to. One step at a time though folks.
Frustrated? Join the club. Me too ;) Already in these few paragraphs i am being auto-corrected each time i use this letter. If i were conspiracy-minded, i might think this was an intentional way to solidify our experience and connection to the individuated body, mind, soul vs. the Greater.
i mean, think about it. When do we ever use that letter uncapitalized on its own? What would be the implication if more of us revolted as i wish to do and am doing in this post? i would hope it would be a greater imprint of what i’m trying to do. Having more of us look at the situation and question if there might be a need, especially a spiritual one, for differentiation.
There is a purpose for this rule-breaking, non-capitalization of the "i" choice and device i will be implementing.
As a teacher of Yoga and where i am on my path within the Nondual philosophic landscape of it all, my current worldview is that a capital "I" should be to recognize the One and Only, the Undifferentiated, the Nondual, the Real. Aka Reality. Aka aka aka … to be discussed in future posts.
This literary device, i believe, will help solve the writer’s choke i've been experiencing, for some time now. Well, to be more transparent, this technique coupled with the decision to use this blog more like a diary of whatever i want to write about that day. Reality may be what is before we think about it. The aspect we experience as “the world” is how we think about it. If we seek to have a “new world”, don’t we need to start with how we language it?